Mad at God?
Job 40:1 ¶ Moreover the LORD answered Job, and said,
2 Shall he that contendeth with the Almighty instruct him? he that reproveth God, let him answer it.
Young’s Literal Translation (YLT)
3 The folly of man perverteth his way, And against Jehovah is his heart wroth.
Amplified Bible (AMP)
3 The foolishness of man subverts his way [ruins his affairs]; then his heart is resentful and frets against the Lord.
Familiarity and intimacy are not the same. Each has a value in life, certainly in married life, but one is no substitute for the other. If one is confused for the other, we have the basis for major human and marital unrest. In marriage, familiarity is inescapable. It happens almost imperceptibly. Intimacy is usually hard to come by. It must be deliberately sought and opened up and responded to. Familiarity brings a degree of ease and comfort. Intimacy anxiously searches for deep understanding and personal appreciation.
Gordon Lester, Homemade, Vol. 4, No. 11.
Ever been angry at God? I have! I remember after the death of my mother, I threw my Bible against the wall exclaiming: “What kind of God are you! We bring hundreds to church off the streets on the bus, and you heal them all, and my own mother, who I love, you let die!”
Well, God is love, and He graciously comforted me over my mothers death before He rebuked me, yet even though His rebuke cost me a trip to the cross, it was still His love, restoring my faith in His Word, and showing me the error of my ways! Maybe horrible things happened to you that in your heart, you still blame God for. I mean, He is almighty God right, He could have prevented them!
People have free will, and there is a mad dog loose in the system named satan, that plays the same old game in each generation: influencing the minds of men to do evil, then blaming God for it.
It is okay to vent your feelings before God, He loves you, but don’t blame Him for evil in the earth. He may allow it, but He did not create it.
I remember one heated exchange, where I yelled at God, where He was challenging me to trust Him to protect me, and I screamed: ‘You want me to trust you to protect me, you say you love me, then why did you let all the crap happen to me as a child. I could do nothing to defend myself…so why should I trust you now?”
Like Job, I had God show up in my bedroom in His glory, but not with a rebuke, I will forever remember what He said that day:
“Child, you do not understand everything yet, but you will in time. I take responsibility for what happened to you as a child, can you forgive me?”
Suddenly all my pride, rage, pain and frustration melted before His love. “Me, forgive you? You are Holy, you can’t do anything wrong!”
Suddenly, I realized our heavenly Father has the character of Jesus, like when He wash His disciples feet. He is not our angry judge, but a loving Father, who will love out our deepest hurts if we let Him, and will gently explain things to us, if we listen.”
May His presence, bring healing and understanding to your deepest darkest nightmares, hurts, frustrations: May the fire of your anger, meet the fire of His love!
“Father, I need you. I hurt, too deep for words. How did it happen? I’m trying to serve you? Please heal me, and touch me, and bring understanding, please I ask, in your name, Lord Jesus, Amen”